9-13-10

Okay so ira 1030 am and its already a good day. I feel independent and free and on my own. I woke up, took the bus myself without complaining to anybody, and actually made it to school early.it just so happens that I walk into my 930 math class and who else but my friend E and JK from narcotics anonymous come into my class! I just finished talking to JK and we re both free from classes from 1045 to 145 and we re going to hit up the noon meeting together. Everything just happens to be falling into place. Oh and E said he will start driving me to school so I don't have to take the bus anymore. I just feel that I keep doing the right thing and god is blessing me more and more.
I talked to my old best friend BM last night and I'm back in touch w my friend LB, and its such a relief. Like I love having na and people that get my emotional aspect of life but it feels so good, to be back w some people that know me from before, during, and after my using, and whom I can still connect to on an spiritual and physical level. Not sexually I'm talking about, but in living a similar life to what I have at home.
Like I just feel that my friends from na don't have boundaries. I know they're working on themselves still and I fit in with them spritually, but they don't understand me when I get really deep into things. Like w my old friends I could talk to them for hours about life and crazy shit, and with my na friends I haven't been able to have that spiritual connection w them only emotionally they get me, but that's it. And its a shame but its life.
The thing I hate about na is that god forbid I talk to someone that uses. I hate that, people that are considered normal are just as much a person as us. They have feelings just like us and go theough shit, and they live a life not surrounding themselves with drugs, cuz they don't obsess about them. I don't know after hanging out w LB, I realized so much and I don't have resentments to 'normal people' anymore. I actually am able to associate w them again. I'm not isolating and its cool. I'm opening up to my family more thanks to LB and I'm happier.